MY MEMORIES
Saturday, January 31, 2009
fri nite at home... i tink it has alr been my routine for duno ages... i nvr get pple asking me out on fri nite... be it friends or wad... i duno y... but somehow or rather... nvm... at least today i actually found something real to do... researching recipes.... hahas... i love looking thru recipes... =P im so domesticated!! hahas... yiwen was like saying we r like losers fri nite no prog... hahas... give up hope...
kok loong is like msning me saying crap again... and my attitude towards him is i jus see wad he types and occassionally reply when i feel like it... tis time he repeating how he thinks miko is pretty again... like AGAIN! hais... in person i can tolerate all these stuff also partly when we meet up we talk more serious stuff and in msn is usually he crap crap and i dun even bother to entertain him.... so different attitude la... i realise my 2 attitudes not only apply to him... it also applies to another pest... but as of late... e 2 attitudes have slowly merged to become only 1 attitude... which is hostile... hais... i duno wad im doing also... i feel so disgusted and i cannot stand him yet im still tolerating?? no wonder i turned hostile... i actually raised my voice ytd n i seriously feel so guilty tt i called to apologize... i really am worried will i cont staying out of guilt... hais... on 1 hand i know staying is not an option on e other it's like i feel kinda a little obliged to always b thr?? ergh! so hard to choose!!!! =S life's so complicated!!!!
another prob tt's also not exactly a prob... hais... i also duno la... it's more of a slowly see, we shall see as we slowly progress kinda thing... even though i really gotta say since like duno when deep down inside i alr got an idea of wad is happening also... e impression isn't exactly e best but like wad i always say... dun ever judge a book by it's cover and much less when u only turned to e back to see wad's e story abt and only am half into it... so far thr r quite a few similarities which is kinda freaky but mayb it's a blessing in disguise cux it makes me notice a super bright red light which in any case is always good.... 1st instinct... protect myself... i hope tis protecting myself attitude is correct... i must make sure e other party is half submerged or more before i agree to venture further into e pool cux i know once i move im gonna go damn deep damn fast.... but as a sidenote... for now... im now only standing by e pool and looking into it thru e surface... i will not touch e water as of yet... it's freaking scary... i have been thr done tt and i dun ever wanna revisit e stupid emotional roller coaster tt i have been thru... i have absolutely no wish to get on another ride so soon aft i jus got off e previous one... plus im way more comfortable with e previous idiot so im still considering if i wanna even join e queue for e new ride.... hahas... i sure have alot of analogies... but pple who knows e stories shd understand wad im talking abt and tt's enuf for me alr... seriously... i jus saw e horoscope on tv and everyone has been telling me e same thing... romance is good for rabbits tis year but seriously does it even show??? but tis is alr considered way better than last yr considering how last yr was...hahas... in any case... lucky e pple im talking abt doesn't have my blog add if not they r so gonna know tt im referring to them... im so freaking lucky tt i haven't given out my blog add to pple in a long time.... *BLESSING IN DISGUISE!!!*
mei went clubbing... hmmm... y m i alr over it?? i also duno... but in anycase... MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF US!!!! THANK YOU!!! LOVE U SO MUCH!!!
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